I understand the theory perfectly my dear But I cannot apply it When Life is really here Reality, reality My major problem is reality I lead long conversations With you in my head But I cannot repeat them When you're really here Reality, reality All goodness lost to stone cold reality The mirror in the bathroom Has been a long time friend Has done better for me Than any mirror can Reality, reality I tell him tales Of cruel, cruel reality. Although of late He has been quite cold I smile at him But he ain't smiling back Hospital, hospital I might have to go into a hospital. Reality, reality I cannot tell dreams from reality. All these years have past Do you feel them too Some things are not easy To put to sleep I've been thinking of you Thinking of you But you sure weren't Thinking of me. So let's try and put These past things behind No point to cry over milk That has been spilt Let's find out Let's find out If we can get something new to drink I know you don't believe me It's so hard to explain Things get awful strange When your Mind detaches from your Brain It's day outside It's day outside But he is trying to convince you That it's night Reality Reality My major problem is Reality

If I'm being totally honest On this day that don't seem to end. I don't think you see me that clearly, And you don't make me feel all that good. And if I'm being totally honest, My mind has gone out for a walk And I'm growing increasigly weary Of listening to you talk. And when it comes back it really should tell of the words that brought it to tears And how it's not that keen on hearing more about your boring little affairs. And if I'm being totally honest, I'm not that interested in your thoughts. I just needed a warmth of a body, And you couldn't even give me that. And if I'm being totally honest We will never be the same Because you are at the very beginning And I'm nearly reaching the end. And if you really wanted me to be by your side You wouldn't be acting like this You'd close your little mouth And touch my warm cheeck And admit how selfish you've been. And if I'm being totally honest I couldn't love you even if I really tried Your childish ways are only a pebble In these Amorite Walls that I've built And all of this is a reaction Of a Soul that's too tired to talk And wonders why it's surrounded By all of these sexless men. And if you really think you can turn my strange wheel And stop your finger on a part that you like I would say you'd have to remove it And continue listening to it spin. And if I'm being totally honest I don't owe you my thoughts. So I'll remove my sacred intentions from your pale colonial skin. And if I'm being totally honest. This is not what I need. You just want me to act like the version of me That you've dreamt up in your head. You are afraid of the Other World Although you are trying to hide it from me. I've been there a while, you'd retrieve if you knew How lonesome this journey has been. And if Im being totally honest You are not what I need I need a man that won't close his eyes When I show him how selfish I've been And if I'm being totally honest Here comes a sobering thought We are not in love We just got nothing else going on.

And here I sit after all that we had planned Writing an UnPlanned GoodBye. He wants to force me in a little hole that he's created But he's filled it with all the things he claimed he hated. But he flew in with the tempest of our pasts And made ploughland from the graveyards of my songs There must be a way to let this live Some words of repentance he can give. Oh how sweet you are my naive little honey He just wants you to make him lots of money He would turn his back on you in a sigh And trade your life for a lead role in a song You give our secrets to your little friend for reviewing And you don't think that I know what you are doing I'm deviod of trust now, my little fickle drummer You should try it with someone a bit dumber. He made an enemy out of fiction of your song And then pretended like he did nothing wrong. With no remorse, he left you purpously bereft Of the only thing that you had left Well don't you worry, just go on, play and live. It's the betrayal of Spirit that I cannot forgive

I need you to hurt me Oh darling I don't wanna go to Berghain I need you to hurt me No sweetheart I won't be waiting no lines I need you to hurt me Come level this pain that's bubbling inside I need you to hurt me Until I almost see the light I need you to hurt me And be prepared to be hurt Oh be prepared to be hurt Hurt me Oh darling I don't wanna go to Berghain I need you to hurt me Until my life is almost done I need you to hurt me And be prepared to be hurt Oh be prepared to be hurt No sweetheart I won't be waiting no lines I need you to hurt me Come level this pain that's bubbling inside I need you to hurt me And be prepared to be hurt Oh be prepared to be hurt Be prepared Be prepared This is no Berghain

Go fuck yourself You condescending piece of shit You almoust convincied me that I'm the one that's crazy Your grandiose speeches never fail to amaze me Why don't you lie down for a year, two or three You'll be just a sidenote in the history of me And go fuck yourself you pretencious piece of shit He thinks genius is whiskey and XY chromosome My boy here's got a bad case of the Bukowski syndrome I'm just here to say I've listened to your album througout My darling you got nothing to be pretencious about And go fuck yourself You fake moralist You wanna put words into mouths of another While your entire persona is downloaded from tumblr I can't even tell if there's a real human in there hid Or just some sort of manufactured little PC robot kid If growing without hurting is what you're trying to achieve, little darling you gotta whole lotta life still to live And go fuck yourself With your excuses of bad childhood Well I'm in for a pound And in for a penny Someone's been called a special little boy one time too many It's time someone finally tells you what's up You're over 35 darling it's time to grow the fuck up Accept consequences for your behaviour laddy And stop blaming it all on mommy and daddy And go fuck yourself, Vanja Zaimović You just sit in your hole in this fine summer weather One second you're worse than everyone and the next one you're better It's time someone finally tells you what's up You're 32 darling, wake the fuck up Finish these stories which you stayed true to To return to wasting your life watching videos on Youtube *Desparate NANA-ing*

You come out of nowhere and put your hands on me And say you should be mine A guy like me can wait his whole life To meet a woman like you And at first I'm not sure if I like you that much But I'm willing to give it a try And each one of our meetings is better than last one But I have a feeling something about you is off As we say in Croatia I won't light a fire While the rabbit is still in the forest And then one day you get all serious on me And say you're not like other guys You cannot move past the wounds of your childhood And you're not able to keep a good thing alive If only you knew how many men hold this stance You'd know how stupid you sound Well I learned my lesson a long time ago And I ain't here to be anyones mother My old boy there's noone in this world Who can save you from yourself And sure there were times when I was much younger When a guy like you could make me utterly hurt I love the perspective your 30ies can give 'Cause now this just makes me laugh Your proclivity to spew out these shallow life stances Make it hard to fathom you're almoust 40 And with a slight risk of sounding too harsh I'll say your problems are really not that uncommon And the outlining forms of your psychological profile Are much simpler than you'd like to think An overbearing mother A distant father And here you are my darling You're so complex And I admit there are times I dred having a son For a fear he'll end up like you Becuse sometimes I really can't tell if you're joking Or are you really that dumb Let me tell you a secret I've learned from similar spirits You're not love impaired, my darling You are just selfish Cause somoene told you long time ago That you should always have all that you want And maybe it worked thus far for beauty of your face But for me it's not gonna fit And if I may offer a piece of advice I'd say rethink your selfish position You're still relatively young for a man But life will get very lonely for you after you're 50 Because things get a bit more severe when all your friends slowly start dying And it's not that you don't have some certain charm And some things you say sound very well thought out But something deep inside of me tells me You just say things you think I wanna hear Things that You've learned from googling my name And listening to my songs on repeat And with a slight fear of sounding too harsh I'd say you still just really dont know who you are And I don't care if other girls think you're so handsome For me, it's not gonna work Because if this is really the best you can do I'd rather move on to somebody better

Life is very strange, it changes every day Just when you think You've got it It turns the other way All these months I wondered what I couldn't understand Couldn't put my finger on it And explain how I am Now I finally get it, now I see you very clear There's a big discrepancy Between the things you do And things that you say And only in solitude am I exactly who I am Outside I'm always on the defense Always doubting myself Well if there's one thing that I've learned From this shit you've put me through You don't need a lover And I don't need a producer I went nearly crazy from songs pilled up in my head Waiting for someone to put them into an expensive microphone There's another thing I've learned from this little episode There's noone in this world that you can count on but yourself So here is a conclusion that I've happily drawn You can't commit to a lover And I can't commit to a producer. It's been seven years since the dawning of these songs I'd much rather be a writer and a poet that I am So I can create my own worlds and not have to lean on anyone But even greatest poem in the world from a poet that's a star Moneterally will not get you very far So to give myself a chance And escape this world I dont fit in I've translated all those poems and I made myself sing I remember when I left for the city that I'm in I've made a little concert for acquaintances and friends There was this guy there, and there's always one like him Sayin': You shouldn't sing in a language that's not native to your tongue They've got plenty of Englishmen there trying to make it through You think you're something special, you think they're waiting for you They won't even move past your strange Balkan name You're not even a musician, you can barely play a guitar Well where I'd be today if I listened to idiots like him Trying to fit me in the box they've created for themselves I said: "You re looking for the key in places that are wrong I don't sing a lanuage, I sing what I am I don't practice my guitar, I don't practice my voice I don't write because I want to, I just got no other choice Poets don't live in the world of everyday Yeah musicians here are countless But i guarantee you they ve got nobody like me" And so I've made it through against all of the odds Despite always being on the outside, always doubting myself And now to honor the great wisdom of this man Just for the heck of it I'll sing one verse in Croatian To je sudba male tranzicijske zemlje Uvijek netko drugi zna bolje uvijek je bolje nesto treće Zlatni kavez kola krvlju nase nacije Bitna je potvrda od Drugog, pozornost nekog Trećeg Ako radiš nešto dobro nitko neće pitat gdje si Ništa od tog nije bitno ako ti znaš tko jesi Kada razmišljam o Nama van uobičajenih priča Nitko mi nije draži od naše slavenske nacije Duboko u sebi ja sam pravi patriota A nije da tu u krasnoj Europi manjka idiota So now to get back to what I was saying before I'm gonna stop waiting for a savior, stop doubting myself Just like Ewa said: " Darling, you're good on your own, You'll be alright without an expensive microphone Just do what you can with what you've got And not let some stupid guy have power over your Art." So here is the last thing I'll say before we're through. You believed in my voice and you understood who I was All the bad things don't overshadow all the fun I'll always cherish that and won't forget what you've done But you've turned a good thing into a living nigtmare Well the greater the climb, the greater the fall So I'm writing this song to make some sense of it all You've lured me in with understanding and then became so very cruel Turned to a measly shadow of a man I thought I knew The disappointment was too great so now I bid you adieu So in coclusion of my little lo-fo masterpiece Life is always changing and you should always change with it I'll make this thing work, if it was last thing that I did I can't be my own lover But I can be my own producer.

Now that dust has settled at last Let me bring this thing to its end There are a few things that need to be said This is not a song it's more of a statement. You tried to thread lightly to keep me around But at that you were unsuccessful One thing which stuck from your little speech That we're the same and You were my equal Well I had some time to calmly conduct A thorough investigation And the evidence gathered clearly suggests We're not the same, I am way better You went off running to give all your time To your vaguely talented friends But despite all the gimmicks and expensive effects Than me they will never be better I realize now that I'm both Lee and Nancy Bound by the highest commitment And after everything is said and done I've got the talent you just got the equipment It's a difficult thing being of nature Both insecure and assertive But I've finally reached a point where I'm sure We're not the same, I'm so blatantly better The tumoltous age is now behind me To tell you the truth, I've never been calmer Stuck between the person I was And the person I'm about to become Well You've stated your piece and I've stated mine And I've got nothing to add So I'll take myself further into the past And talk to somebody else Despite all my forgiving attempts This friendship cannot continue What an original diagnosis you have An unconciuos manipulator I've done all in my power to be a friend And forgive all your little intrigues And all the serious offences comitted Who's counting but this was the third You gave me a very clear indication That the time of enlightenment was nearing Well my enlightenment is reaching its peak And your enlightenment is still a teenager When I add and subtract all our times together They don't add up to a number that's even You've been more of foe than a friend If I were You, I'd be ashamed You made it seem like it's all understood And it wasn't a fault of neither Oh just how wrong can one women be He's not dumb But he ain't that smart either Some previous words were opposing this fact But now it's so clear and apparant I've actually worked to transform the disantvantage We're not the same And dont you forget it You can argue that I am too harsh in these words Well You were harsh in your deeds You've done it to me but thats where it ends I dont want you any close to my children And while im at it, another message to someone I'm taken, you gotta stop calling He is the final destination for me And than You, He's about a million times better We've all been there at times that's just how it is My girl you gotta stop complaining Self pity is a universal solace for the hurt But when its endless its just plain narcism At times you hurt, at times you get hurt We made deals with both God and the Devil I wish all of You a joyous way forward And all the best from Pula, Veruda.